Salam
Alhamdulillah.. still breathing for another day in the way of Islam.. Praise upon Allah our only one God and also to Prophet Muhammad S.A.W.
Its been like ages since i posted my last entry. I realized about myself not being istiqamah and I totally felt sorry but my school life and study always become my top priority.Thanks to one of my friend coz reminded me to be more responsible and dont make 'busy' as an excuses. It is way too common( yup indeed I really agree).
Silence in a couple of weeks actually make me realized something..In these time I experienced a lot which gradually make me thinking about how people could change easily. It's such a meticulous theory of upbringing the special truth about one's self. More over, the thing is, humans do change a lot and based on my very own observation, we are one in many ways.I am telling this based on my life and somewhat i do hope that i can be better.
Fortnight ago I could say that I am loosing myself in this blind world.It was a messed.I broke the promise to myself. It was a metaphorical phenomenon that I managed to discover before it gets worst.Alhamdulillah I really thanked sources that give me back my soul especially the weekly usrah that i joined.I still remembered my senpai during the discussion session said human really change easily. At that time the inner self spoken. In Islam either we have to be Muslim, or not, there is no such thing as 50/50. It is not a part time job.
If we want to train ourselves I strongly believed that we have to start first from our souls. Look deep down in oneself.And start to realize our mistakes, are we part time or full time Muslims? Ask yourself, was the Prophet Muhammed (SAW) gave us in a hadeeth, when we are busy in our worldly affairs, so then we can apply the Islam as a part time, or when we have time we can pray, or we are still praying on Fridays. Lets start to realize our lifestyles. When we wake up in the morning, what is the first thing that sits in our minds, is it the waking up du'a, or the shahadah? or is it planning of the day?
(They say): "Our Lord! Let not our hearts deviate (from the truth) after You have guided us, and grant us mercy from You. Truly, You are the Bestower." (3:8) This verse (3:8) in sura al-baqarah, gives a ruling to our soul, to keep asking from one's Lord, Allah (SWT), to not let one be sunk in this world, after you have given me guidance. This means after Allah has given one guidance, then that person is under the protection of Allah (SWT), and when one is under the protection of Allah, then this means he or she is under the blessings of Allah (SWT) here and in the hereafter. And we realize the greatness of Allah. After all the sins that were committed in the past by us, however the blessings of Allah are still on us, verily he is the bestower.
Instead of keeping one's self fully busy in this world only, everyday remind yourself that indeed you have to meet your Lord. And always think that this is your last and final day of your life. When you remind your soul, then you feel like you are a traveller, and everyday remind yourself that you are going to your final destiny, to meet your Lord where you originally came from.
'Oo Allah please accept my taubat. I am humbly seeking for your hidayah.Guide me through your nur in the path of Islam and Iman. Ameen'
